July 28, 2008*Faire Ou Pluie*
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Posted on 07/28/2008 3:37 PM Comments (5)
July 21, 200807/21/08 Motion City Soundtrack, The Spill Canvas and SING IT LOUD! x3333...Ohhh, where do I begin?? Well. I went with lizzy[tellmewhatillneverbe] and in the line...hotguys. <3 I never knew hot boys existed in Winnipeg. xD. and then at the merch table...No one was in line for sing it loud. so tragic. so we went and I got a sweater, and a poster because I gave Ryan, who is the merch guy, a tip. :] and then after lizzy got her stuff, we went inside and we got riiiighhhhttttt up to the stage...far side, though, right by the speakers. lol. and then nate<3333 came and he was standing and we got pictures and signed my sweater/poster. and when he signed my sweater he wrote "I<3U" and I was like "I LOVE YOU TOO!" and he was like "I LOVE YOU!" xD.he is soooo nice. I love him to death. <33333 and after, we got these chicks beside us to watch our spot and we went up on the balcony to get bens signature...and we left the camera in lizzy's bag so we told him we would get a picture later and then..HE SAID HE DIDNT LIKE REGINA! But I wonder why, CONSIDERING YOU GUYS BOOED THEM. If you were one of them...I will find you..and I will hurt you. I promise. But ANYWAYS. then they played[30minuteslater] and GASHH! It was sooooo goood.<3 I could barley understand pat..but thats okay. :] Nate...between songs, he randomly came over to me, and touched my head and made a circle with his finger. So random. but soo cute.<3 and then they finished and the spill canvas came on...the lead singer spit on everyone...and yeah...then motion city soundtrack came on. then we left. and we hung outside for alittle. we played cards...lizzy showed off her awesome card dealer skills. hawt. then we talked with nate and ben. It was awkward...I was like "..." and he was like "..." and lizzy was like "say it!" and I was like "..." and he was like "did you want something.." and I was like "You thouched my head." and he was like "yeah. I know." and I was like "..."*weirdlook* and he was like "It was very beautiful" XD. and I forgot to ask him why..but I asked him later, when it was done and everyone swarmed him. and he was like "because its fun...and your awesome." haha. oooh. and the merch guy, Ryan. he has a band. its called. Take Cover. and he showed us their myspace page. and he has facebook AND buzznet, so ima add them as soon as im done writing this. <3 I got his autograph. and a picture with him. hehe. Pat was nice. :] XD. good story...after the whole "it was very beautiful" thing. Nate and Ben and Ryan and some random chicks sang me happy birthday. Ben said he wouldnt sign the girls stuff if they didnt sing me happy birthday. and Nate was like "and when we say her name, we have to point at her!" XDDD. and he almost pointed when they sang the first YOU. And then he did the whole "I didnt just do that I was fixing my hair" thing. hes so nice and so cute. AHH! I love him. xD. hes replaced jack. : O Oooh. and RYan smelt really good..when I took a picture with him I was like "You smell good." xD. It think thats it..theres some..non important stuff I left out..like that chick "That would be awesome if I got spazed on" Gosh. *punches them in the face* but I love sil...<3 I want to see them again. I LOVE YOU GUYS! AND I LOVE YOU RYAN! AND RYANS BAND, TAKE COVER! <333 and if I missed stuff, i'll add it when I put pictures of me and everyone up. :] -love sarah.<3
Posted on 07/21/2008 10:01 PM Comments (5)
July 16, 2008--[One]Please Don't Let Me Go[Shot]--He sat, cold and alone. Silent tears ran down his cheeks. He never thought grieving could be so hard. But he also never thought he would have the need to grieve. He never thought this would happen. He sighed in defeat, and pushed himself closer to the wall behind him, craving for some sort of touch. He pressed his eyes closed and tried to think of her leaning against his back. The cold brick wall started to feel softer and warmer, he could feel the false burning sensation of the skin to skin contact on his back. He knew it was all in his head...but it felt so real. He turned, and pressed his lips to the false women leaning against him. He burst out crying when they came in contact with the brick wall. It wasnt what he was hoping for. The memories of her with him brought tears to his eyes. All memories with her was good to them, even the less fortunate ones. It was a cold winter night, the power had gone out and they were cuddling on the couch, candles flickering around them. Shivers ran down her spine. She placed her head back into the crook of his neck. He gently nuzzled her and held her tighter in his arms. They sat in silence for awhile, just enjoying each others company. His tears began to flow as if an ocean had been trapped in his head. That was the last time they had exchanged any real words. Made an attempt at conversation. He missed her terribly, already. She had only been gone since the morning. He was yearning for her, his heart felt as if it was stabbed a million times and placed in a blender. The worst thing was, he knew how much it hurt her when she left. He was aware of the pain she endured, but never experienced it. He wished deeply it had been him instead of her. He was nothing without her, and he now had nothing to live for. He was sipping coffee in his office, the television being the least interesting thing there. He glanced up at it, and saw a picture of her. He was stunned. He couldnt hear what the newscast was saying. He stood up, dropping his coffee mug on the way and stumbled to the television. His mind went blank, except for one key word. Fatal. Her crash was fatal. Shes...shes...no, she cant be. She promised me shed come back. He was hysterical and his co-workers could hear his crying from the other side of the office building. "Im sorry. Im so sorry." He cried out to nothing. He didnt get a reply from the invisible women. He cried harder. He wanted to hear her again, to feel her. It seemed as if she had left him, for the second time. He couldnt stand it. He had to have her. His heart pulled in all directions. He was ready to do anything to get her back. If at least for the moment. He had to to tell her something before she moved on into another life. So he took out his switch blade from his back pocket. He thought about how he couldnt do anything without her, how he had no one else to turn to. No one else to love. No matter how much he thought of ending his own life, she didnt speak. He sighed, and lowered the blade to his wrist. "I have to tell you something." He said to the air. He thought for sure someone would hear him talking to himself and send him to a mental hospital, but he didnt care. Nino, she hasnt used my nickname for awhile... he thought to himself. He took a deep breathe, "I love you. I always have and I always will."
Posted on 07/16/2008 12:21 AM Comments (1)
May 4, 2008Alex Gaskarth vs. Bryce Avery. Whos better?No seriously. Im having this fight with mariana. Its pretty funny. So tell me who is better, and here is some of the convo--> -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: PSSSSH. they are probably better than all time low. SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: all time low beats trs. -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: .... SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: THATS RIGHT I FUCKING WENT THERE AGAIN -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: a cow on steroids beats atl -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: BAM -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: WENT THERE SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: Oh yeah? -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: AND BOUGHT SOMETHING SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: The rocket summer thinks their all the and a bag of chips SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: but all time low SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: is all that SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: a bag of chips SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: AND a bag of skittles SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: SO TASTE THE RAINBOW BITCH! -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: .....THAT WAS SO FREAKIN DELAYEDD! PLUS!! -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: can alex play ALL the instruments in his band?! SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: BEAT YOU 5 BUCKS HE CAN -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: I THOUGHT SO. SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: HOW DO I KNOW?! SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: I WATCHED HIM PLAY DRUMS AFTER TEH SHOW -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: fullstop! I SAW THAT -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: HE WASNT EVEN GOOD! -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: HA! SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: PSH SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: ATLEAST HE CAN SING SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: OH YAY SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: WHATCHA GONNA DO NOW?! -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: BRYCE CAN SING! HE SINGS BETTER THAN ALEX -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: ALEX HAS NOTHING ON BRYCE. SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: YEAH, MAYBE IF YOU ARE TONE DEAF! SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: ALEX HAS EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING ON BRYCE SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: ALEX COULD RAPE HIM SIDEWAYS WHILE BEING BLINDFOLDED -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: PSH! ALEX RAPES EVERYTHING THAT MOVES! -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: IT WOULDNT BE BRYCES FAULT. SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: ALEX is GOOD WITH HIS HANDS, FEET AND FACE! SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: ... SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: that didnt make sense SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: XD SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: BUT SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: ALEX HAS A WAY WITH WORDS SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: AND GIRLS LITERALLY DROP DEAD JUST STARING AT HIM -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: ...no it didnt. haha. SO DOES BRYCE. AND GIRLS DONT FOR BRYCE? -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: BRYCE HAS BEEN AROUND FOR LONGER SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: WHICH JUST MEANS HE'LL DIE SOONER -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: HE'S ONLY LIKE 3 YEARS OLDER THAN THEY ARE SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: DOESNT MATTER SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: HE'LL STILL DIE SOONER -- [FTSK!! MAY13th] -- Show me the skyline and i'll show you decadence....-- says: OH YEAH! ALEX CANT TAKE A WHIPPED TOWEL TO THE ASS!!!!!!!!!! SareBear[x3]-Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun says: THATS CAUSE HES SORE FROM RAPING BRYCE
Posted on 05/04/2008 2:40 PM Comments (12)
April 19, 2008[Original]Champagne’s For Celebrating, I’ll Have A Martini[OneShot]Mmmkay. I wrote a one shot. I was inspiared. Lol. Anyways...yeah, here you go. :] Champagne’s For Celebrating, I’ll Have A Martini It was another bright and sunny day, kids were throwing their graduation hats in the air in triumphant. Celebration. This isn’t celebration; this isn’t something you should be happy about. He was leaving. He was leaving me behind. I was being left in the teenage world while he was going off into the great unknown adult world. He was maturing while I was stuck having to learn trigonometry. That wretched thing. I couldn’t remember the last time I had spoken to him. The last time I had him in my arms. They warned me this would happen, but I didn’t listen. I told them I would speak with him before he left, but now it was too late. “Carsyn Ross.” I heard the principal call his name. His friends and family cheered for him, he walked towards the principal, shaking his hand while the principal exchanged the other hand with the diploma, they paused for pictures and he walked to the other side, meeting the rest of his class mates who had already received their diploma. He smiled all the way. Could he not see the rain cloud that was present over my head? Maybe if it stayed there long enough it would wash him out of my head. That was highly impossible, though. I looked at my run down skater shoes that would fall apart if I even stepped down on them too hard. I looked at my ripped jeans and my graphic t-shirt that looked like it was 5 years old. I played with my hair; bring some in front of my face. The cut was old and unoriginal. It looked like I hadn’t showered in days, which was true. I hadn’t really done much of anything in the past few days. Did I really belong here? Everyone was so well dressed, the girls were wearing high heels and polished garments. Here I was wearing my worst clothes. The only reason I wore it...I wore this same outfit the day I first saw him. I thought maybe if I wore it, he would notice me? It didn’t seem to be working. It never worked. I had craved for his attention, I changed myself for him, even if it didn’t achieve anything other than leave me more heartbroken than ever. I remember all the ‘trends’ I tried. Punk, which is what I really started off with, emo, gangster, prep, reject, loner. I hated every single minute my life was read off a movie script. I couldn’t help it, I loved the stupid boy. He had stolen my heart and didn’t have the decency to return it, even now when he was leaving. Could I really love someone forever? I thought to myself. I could feel the pricking at my eyelids, the tears threatening to fall out in rivers. I promised myself I wouldn’t cry. I can’t cry. He isn’t worth it. Not when he doesn’t care I’m even here. --- She’s crying again. She always seems to cry when I’m around. She was sitting the very back row, so far away, but still so close. It always seemed to be that way. We always kept our distance, but it killed me for her to be so far away. It was easier when I held her those couple times. No one knew, I didn’t even know. I had loved her since I first saw her. It was 3 years ago. When she first came to the school. She was in grade 7, so shy, so nervous. <<Flashback>> “Hey Car, look at all the fresh meat.” My friend said. “Yeah.” I replied, a little taken back by one in particular. She had major roots. The dyed part being blonde while her natural color was a pretty brown color. Her eyes were the same color as her eyes, hazel. I noticed that when she walked past windows and the sun splashed on her natural hair, a red color would reflect off. She was short, but normal size for her age. A little cubby, but that would probably disappear once she starts growing. I noticed her style first. Her skater shoes and her slightly torn jean, her graphic t-shirt looked new, but it was worn down, probably purchased that way. She flipper her sideswipe, turning around while doing so. She looked right at me, while I pretended to look through her. “See anyone you like, Car?” My other friend asked. They knew I was lonely, and they knew I craved to be loved by someone. But they tried to force love. Whenever I told them I liked someone, they would ask her out for me, and she would say no. This had happened many times in the past few years. I have a good feeling about her. She seems sweet and caring. Just what I’ve been craving for my whole life. I can’t let this one go. I won’t let them chase her away as they did for every other girl. <<End Flashback>> She was wearing the same outfit as the day I first saw her. She looked different in the never-ending sea of crying parents and proud grandparents. She stuck out, but not like a sore thumb. It was more like the ugly duckling. He didn’t fit at first, and was made fun of, but when he found his family, he felt like he belonged. He was always beautiful, no matter what the other ducks said. This was the same case. I watched people pick on her. I watched her look at me and her eyes pleaded for help, but I never came. I was never her knight in shining armour; I wasn’t even her loser in aluminum foil. <<Flashback>> “You stupid bitch, you know what I heard about your family? I heard that they need to sell you for money. Is that true, you walking and talking AIDS machine.” I heard some annoying voice say. I heard a whimper follow it. I turned, and froze. It was her. They called her the AIDS machine. She was the one who was whimpering. She was on the ground, on her hands and knees, her head down, hair coving her face completely. A saw a small sparkle fall from her face to the ground. That’s how I knew, she was crying. They made her cry, they had broken the unwritten rule of bullying. They had called her family out. I had to stop them, but I couldn’t seem to move my body. “Hey, you prostitute, how much do you cost per hour?” One boy said. Her body started shaking madly. “You cunt, answer them!” Some girl said, kicking her in the gut. She dropped to the ground, still not showing her face. A small circle had now gathered around them. I was taller than most, so I didn’t need to stand in the front, I preferred the back anyways. “Is it true, do your parents do hardcore drugs?” Some other boy asked. The same girl as before stomped on her back. I have to stop this, I thought to myself, But why can’t I? “N-n-no.” I heard her stutter out. She was trying to stand up now, her face was showing. Her eyes were red but she kept a good poker face. “Oh look, she speaks!” One boy said. I made a mental note to add those boys to my hit list. “My name is Skye, and yeah, I do. Surprisingly the AIDS haven’t gotten that bad yet.” Skye replied. So that was her name. Her confidence was going up. “AIDS can make you not be able to speak?” Some blonde girl asked. “It’s called mute, and no, I was being sarcastic.” Skye said while rolling her eyes. “Are you being funny with us, Skye?” One boy asked, taking a step closer to her. “No, I’m not, I’m just saying these things so you will have a reason as to why you are going to beat me up.” Sarah said, digging holes through the guys head. “Oh really? Well isn’t that kind, girls, I think this is for you.” He said. And they moved in. They beat on her, I just watched and cringed, her eyes were searching for someone to help her, and her eyes landed on mine, I quickly looked away. I stepped back from the circle and spun on my heel. I don’t think I will ever be able to look her in the eyes again. <<End Flashback>> --- While I walked home, I couldn’t help but dwell on the moments he looked through me. It was like I was a ghost to him, invisible. Over the past few years I’ve come to love him and his flaws. I couldn’t seem to love my flaws. My freckled face and my fat body and the way I put people down without even realizing it. How I forgive everything cold that crossed my path. I couldn’t be mad at him, nor anyone else for that matter. I hated myself, and he hated me too. “Hey honey!” my mother called from the front porch, breaking me from my thoughts. “Hey, mom.” I called back, stepping into the open gate, closing it after me. “How was your day?” she asked. “Fine.” I said, faking the same smile I had come to use so often. “Well that’s good. Bonnie needs you to babysit Sydney tomorrow night, would that be okay?” my mother always tried to find a way for me to earn my own money, she knew I hated asking her for some. “Yeah, sure.” --- I should go see her before I leave. I slowly walked towards her house. As I got closer and closer, my nerves grew larger and larger. What was I going to say to her? Should I be subtle? Up front? Romantic? So many things I could say...but there wasn’t enough time in the world to say it all. I had to start by saying sorry. Sorry for not paying attention to her. I have to explain why I did it. I have to explain why I love her. And why I have to leave. I have to tell her everything. I stood in front of her gate. Breathe Steve, breathe. I can do this. Slowly, I opened her front gate. Walked up her steps, and brought my hand up to the door. I paused. I closed my eyes tightly and knocked quickly three times. I heard the door open and I opened my eyes quickly. “Hi, can I help you?” A lady asked, I’m guessing her mother. “Hello. Yes, my name is Carsyn and I’m here to see your daughter, Skye.” My voice shaked a little. “Um...okay. She’s downstairs in her room, go right ahead.” Her mother let me in and I slowly made my way down to her room. I paused in front of her door. What was I going to say, again? Crash. I flung the door open to find her passed out on the floor. Four bottles lay around her, two lay open and empty, the two other were untouched. No. Was all I couldn’t think of. This wasn’t in the plan. I was supposed to come, confess everything and leave. She wasn’t supposed to leave. I felt a tear run down my face. All those years...ignoring her and this is what happens. It wasn’t supposed to end like this. I would leave and she would graduate, and then come to me. We would get married, have 2 kids, I would be a doctor and she would be a stay at home mother. We would die in our death beds holding each other. Well...at least we can still do one thing. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry for ignoring you. I was just scared. My friends, they like to scare all the girls I liked away. I thought if I pretended not to like you, then I wouldn’t scare you away. I guess I didn’t scare you away; I did much, much worse. I love you so much. Why would you do this? Why?” I cried to her lifeless body. The tears caught in my throat. And that’s when I heard it. If they hadn’t of caught, I wouldn’t of been able to hear her over my crying. Her voice was so weak...but I still managed to hear it. “I love you too.” They say the last words someone says before dying truly mean something. I now believe that. I now believe in everything I never did believe in before. I believe that you can find true love, and that there is such thing as love at first sight. I took the two remaining bottles in my hands. I twisted the tops off. Slowly, I downed each pill dry. The more pills that digested in my stomach, the less I felt anything. I finished the bottle off, lying down next to her. I wrapped her arms around me and I wrapped mine around her. This is how I imagined it...well, not quite, but at least we would die in each other’s arms. They say the last words before someone dies truly mean something, well these are mine, “If you go down, I’ll go down with you.”
Posted on 04/19/2008 9:24 PM Comments (5)
April 2, 2008Faber Drive Concert. 01/04/08That was loads of fun! : D I went with bo dizzle. We first went to my house and made doughnuts! : D That was pretty interesting. The nutmeg looked like poison or something...but anyways. Me and elizabeth probably waited in line for the doors to open for like..an hour. but they finally did and we all flooded in. Its weird though because so many people went infront of us and was like "we're volunteering(sp?)" It was pissing me off. But its fine. and so we first went in line for faber drive but desided to get hello operator instead. and we met Justin Bunn, and he asked us our names and I was kinda creeped out at first but yeah. I got a shirt, its like...i dont even know how to explain it. its white..and its like volume thingys? idk. but yeah its sweet. After we went and stood in our spots..which was close. and first hello operator came and it was pretty sweet, i didnt know anywords but thats okay. I yelled "TAKE OFF YOUR SHIRT!" and the bassist Craig Mailman asked back "which one?" I yelled "all!" but he didnt hear, thats okay. then faber drive came on. they played all their songs along with a cover of "I just died in your arms" and "paralyzer." SOmeone threw a gold heart thingy on the stage and Faber asked if he could keep it. It was pretty funny. Yeah not much happened with them. atfer the show we pretty much cut everyone in line and I bought hello operators cd's. 2 for $10. : D and one of the securtity people called us normies. it was weird. me and elizabeth waited for like, half an hour until the line died down. and we met all of faver drive and hello operator. elizabeth and them were talking about teeth. when we came around to hello operator we were liek "we're back" and I got my shirt signed this time. : D so my shirt and my cd is sighned. woooo hooo! : D yeah we took pictures with justin and andrew. : D i looked retarded in both but thats okay. im too lazy to type so I am just going to stop now. byebye! -Love Sarah. <3
Posted on 04/02/2008 1:41 PM Comments (2)
March 17, 2008--[OriginalSlash]Stop The Tape, The Sunset Still Looks Fake To Me[05]--Mmkay...Ten years later...*clears throat* Sorry guys! I've been...procrastinating...I havent even been doing my homework...Haha...yeah, but! I am posting now...and I am working on another fanfict...no slash...I don't really wanna write slash anymore...but I will finish this story..cause im cool like that. But I will might get two going at once. I might not post a lot...cause I wanna finish typing the story before I post again...And I'll do that with the other fanfict too. It will probably be original...unless I change my mind and deside to use some band. Uhhmm...It will be based on the book "The Little Mermaid." Yes. I still read those picture books. I have the collectables...and like, a gasillion of them. Sooo yeah! Uhm...two new characters introduced. +pictures. [ps. in the story I dont tell you how one of the new characters look...they look exactly like the picture. and I forgot to include it..and it doesnt really go anywhere...INJOY] -Love Sarah.<3
[05] The sun beamed down over our heads, not being disturbed by one cloud. The sky seemed unrealistically blue today. The wind blew gently through the city, pushing our hair out of our faces. The light chirps of birds could be heard in the distance along with the yelling of children. “Are you ready for your first bike lesson!?” Sharron screamed, flinging his hands into the air. Kevin looked scared out of his mind just looking at the bike. “You don’t have to if you are scared...” I said quietly, looking at my hands pulling up the grass between my legs. “I want to.” I heard Kevin say proudly. I looked up and he had the biggest smile spread across his face, I couldn’t help but smile back. “Okay, if you really want to.” I said. “YAY!” Kevin cheered while fling his hands over his head and waving them around. Sharron, Cole and I burst into laughter. “He acts like such a kid...” Cole whispered to me. “I know, it’s adorable.” I whispered back, admiring Kevin’s free spirit. “Ready to get on, sweetie?” Sebastian said, holding the bright pink bike by its handle bars. Bright pink? Well...let’s just say, that’s how I found out I liked boys. “Yeah.” Kevin said, observing a blue jay sitting in the tree. We all just stood there for a couple of minutes. “Are you ready, Kevin?” Cole finally asked, breaking the silence that had fallen over us. “Yay!” Kevin yelled and jumped up from where he was sitting. He tried to take a step...but failed miserably. All you could hear through the peaceful neighbourhood was a lot of screaming... “Awe Kevin!” Sebastian cooed as he quickly dropped the bike and ran over to Kevin. “Are you okay?” Cole asked, still sitting beside me. “Sharron!!!” I heard Sebastian scream. “Hmm?” I asked. I saw Sebastian roll his eyes before saying, “Kevin wants you.” “Oh! I’m sorry, are you okay Kevin?” I asked get up and walking towards Kevin and Sebastian. I heard Cole’s footsteps behind me. Kevin nodded his head. I could tell he was holding back his tears as best as he could. Kevin sat on the ground clutching his knee, with tears rimming his eyes, threatening to drain out if he even breathed. I wanted to take a picture so bad. Kevin looked like a classic 5 year old after they had tripped over their own shoe. I laughed to myself, looks like this boy could cure my bitchy moods with just a facial expression. “What’s so funny, space boy?” I heard Cole asked. “Nothing.” I replied, I could feel my cheeks burning up, so I looked at my suddenly very interesting shoes, letting my hair fall over my face. “PIGGYBACK RIDE!!!” I heard someone scream and then a weight was pressed against my back. I fell forward, with an ‘umph.’ “I’m sowwy.” I heard someone, the same person, say with a giggle. “Haha, if you want a piggyback ride, ask first!” I said laughing. I turned myself around underneath the person and came face to face with none other than Kevin. I pulled my hand up and ruffled his hair, he started giggling more. I smiled, he was just too adorable. “Okay boys, time to get up! Luke is coming over!!” Sebastian screamed. Kevin rolled off of me and I just laid there staring at the sky. Sebastian cared for Luke so much, although he might flirt with other boys in front of Luke, he would never ever do anything to hurt Luke. Luke was head-over-heels for Sebastian, everyone knew that! Luke probably would jump off a bridge if Sebastian asked him to. It was adorable to watch the pair. Sebastian, the outrageous boy, and Luke, the boy who no one really knew was there. Sure, he was drop dead gorgeous, but he never really stood out in a crowd, he always would try to just blend in and not be noticed. You wouldn’t expect a boy like Sebastian to go for a boy like Luke...well, you would, but to actually see them together was really surprising, to me at least. Luke was a very pretty boy, his face was soft and comforting, no prominent cheekbones in sight. His eyes were a golden brown, very comforting color. His hair was a very dark brown, almost black. He didn’t feel the need to dye it, he didn’t want to be ‘fake’ as he called it. Luke and Sebastian looked very alike. Someone once thought they were twins, boy were they shocked when they found out they were dating. I still remember the look on that poor ladies face, it was priceless. “Earth to space boy, come back to us!” Someone said, brining me out of my thoughts. “Jordon?” I asked. Wasn’t Luke supposed to be coming? “No, the boogie man, of course!” Jordon said, laughing slightly. “Wasn’t Luke supposed to be coming?” I asked. “Yes, he is riiighhht, over there!” Jordan replied, pointing to a tree. Sebastian was up it and Luke was trying to get him down. Luke hated when Sebastian climbed, Luke always thought Sebastian would fall out and hurt himself. I nodded my head, “Have you met Kevin yet?” “Yes, he seems like a very nice boy, very shy though.” “Yeah, probably more shy then Luke is.” Jordon laughed and nodded his head. “Well, we better go help Luke get Sebastian out of the tree.” “Yeah, we should.” Jordon put his hand out to help me up, I gladly accepted and he pulled me up with ease. “Sebastian, please come down!” Luke begged, once we got in hearing distance. “Luke, please come up!” Sebastian said mimicking Luke’s tone. Luke put his hand on his hip, supporting all his weight on one leg. Sebastian smiled and jumped down. “See, I’m safe. No harm done.” Sebastian gave Luke a big bear hug and a kiss on the cheek. “I think it’s a feel good friend mommennnttttttt!” Cole screamed jumping on Sebastian and Luke. “WO!” Jordon screamed, jumping on them as well. “Come on, Kevin.” I said, grabbing his hand and we jumped on everyone else. --- “He isn’t ready to go to school!” I screamed, quite frustrated with my parents. “Yes, Sharron, he is!” My mother screamed back. “He doesn’t know enough stuff! I could stay home and teach him! I’m a straight A student! I could do it!” I pleaded. “You will miss school, and that is unacceptable.” My father said calmly. “But dad! They will eat him alive! Please, just give me at least one more week! I could do it as an extra credit thing. University’s like credits!” I clasped my hands together, shaking them to try to get my point across. My father looked at my mother, they had that weird mind telepathy thing they did all the time. Whenever I asked, they said it was because they were soul mates, they shared a soul, and therefore had the same feelings on things. “Okay, but Monday morning take Kevin to school and run it with your principal.” My mother said. “YES!” I screamed, I ran and hugged my parents, “THANK YOU SO MUCH!” “Haha, your welcome, now go see if he is okay with it.” My father said, patting me on my back awkwardly. “Oh, he will be!” I screamed, running for the stairs. I jumped two at a time. I had to tell Kevin the good news, and fast! “KEVIN KEVIN, KEVIN! GUESS WHAT! GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT!” I screamed, flinging my door open to reveal a slightly scared boy sitting cross legged on his bed. I jumped on it and started jumping up and down. He started bouncing as well, since he was sitting on it. “...What...?” He asked nervously. “I GET TO HOME SCHOOL YOU FOR AWHILE! JUST YOU AND ME!” I screamed, jumping off his bed and going to mine. He just kind of looked at me funny for a little before replying “That’s cool!” By then, I was completely out of breathe and I was sprawled out in my bed. “So how did you like my friends?” I asked breathlessly. “The seemed nice.” He said smiling at me. “Yeah, they are very nice.” “Yeah.” “You sure are talking more...and it has only been like what, two days?” This time he didn’t say anything, he just nodded. Did I say something wrong? I watched as he slowly laid down in his bed. “Good night.” I said, jumping up to turn off the lights. I jumped back on my bed and fell asleep, thinking of what I had said to make him stop talking.
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February 3, 2008--[Original Slash]Stop The Tape, The Sunset Still Looks Fake To Me[04]--OKAY! Well...I haven't posted in a long time...I think ima dedicate this one to Maddi[williamxo] because she practiclly forced me to write it..and if she didn't, I probably would of never written again...SO! yeah. here ya go! =] *plus its really long and all her fanfictions are long. mine was 4 and a half pages! =O. I had to cut some stuff out though...otherwise it would of been longer! Lol. ANYWAYS! go read! NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW! -Love Sarah. <3 [04] 5:00 am. Still no sleep... Why? You may ask. Well...if you had a gorgeous boy in your bed, would you be able to sleep? I didn’t think so. Cole and Sebastian stayed the night, so they were sleeping together in Kevin’s new bed. Kevin and I, were in my bed. Kevin barley took up any space on my bed. I was afraid that if I close my eyes, he would disappear. That is the other reason I’m still not asleep. Sleepless nights+me=Very, very, VERY bitchy mood. I couldn’t help it though... “Phil...why?” I heard someone softly say. Cole. So he did know about Phil cheating on him? I heard soft crying. I hated to see Cole in such a bad state...he was always the one to cheer everyone else up... “Cole...are you awake?” I softly said. The crying stopped. “...Cole?” I asked again. “Yeah?” He replied, his voice was raspy. “Is everything okay?” I was concerned...I had only seen him cry once before, when we confronted him on Phil’s cheating. “Yeah, I’m fine.” Coles voice broke...I knew he was lying. His voice always breaks when he’s lying. “Cole...I know you’re lying...” I said softly...looking at the covers of my sheets that I could barely make out in the dark. “I know...I don’t really want to talk about it right now...maybe in the morning with Sebastian...and Kevin?” “Sure...whatever you want. Just feel better.” “Thanks Sharron, I love you.” “I love you too.” “Oh, and Sharron?” “Yeah?” “Don’t worry, Kevin isn’t going to disappear if you close your eyes.” I could feel the blood rush to my cheeks. --- “Shawty had them Apple Bottom Jeans [Jeans], Boots with the fur [With the fur], The whole club was looking at her, She hit the flo [She hit the flo], Next thing you know, Shawty got low low low low low low low low” I groaned. Waking up to Flo Rida, wasn’t my ideal way of waking up. I lifted the bed from under my head and flung it over my head, holding it down enough to suffocate me. “Damnit, Sharron! You are going to kill yourself if you don’t loosen the grip you have on that pillow!” I heard Sebastian say. “Turn off the damn music!” I screamed. “Not until you get your big fat lazy head outta bed! It’s like, 2:00 pm! Kevin is lonely!” Sebastian said while trying to pry the pillow off my face. “Kevin?!” I asked, my head flew out from under the pillow. Low and behold, there was Kevin sitting awkwardly on his bed. He waved to me. I waved back. “Now will you turn it off?!” I practically growled. “Whoa...someone had a bad night!” Sebastian said while waving his finger in my face. I heard Kevin giggle from his bed. I looked around the room, noticing Cole wasn’t there. Did he leave, trying to avoid the conversation we were supposed to have today? “Where’s Cole?” I asked, still searching my room for any signs of him. “He...is downstairs making food, I think.” Sebastian said. “Oh...let’s go! I’m hungry!” I said, swinging my legs over the bed and standing. I think I got up too quickly, because as soon as I was upright, I was down on the floor...if we didn’t clean earlier today..it wouldn’t of hurt so much! Sebastian burst out laughing and Kevin was trying to confine his giggles, but it wasn’t going so well for him. “What? You think it is funny when I fall?” I asked them both. Sebastian just nodded, he couldn’t take time to speak, I don’t even think he could breathe! “Yes.” Kevin said, covering his mouth with his hand to hopefully try to keep him from bursting like Sebastian? “What’s so funny up he-” I heard someone speak from the door way, Cole, he cut off his sentence halfway through it, “Sharron, what on heavens earth are you doing on the floor?” “He...when...HAHA!” Sebastian said between his fit of laughter. Kevin was still giggling like mad. He was adorable. I just scowled. Cole reached his hand out to help me, after walking from the door to get to me. I Gladly accepted and he pulled me up with ease. As soon as I was up, I went straight for the door. As I walked down the stairs, a wave of food hit me. Mmmm...My stomach growled. “I know, baby, you’re hungry! We will be eating in a second.” I said to my stomach while patting it lightly. “Sharron, who on earth are you talking to?!” I jumped, not expecting it fell down the rest of the stairs...thank goodness there was only 3 steps left. “Thanks Cole.” I said, sarcasm dripping off my words. “Are you okay?” He said franticly, running down the steps. “Yes. I am perfectly fine, thank you very much. Now help me up, damnit!” I scowled, for the second time in less than 5 minutes. “Didn’t get enough sleep? He really won’t disappear...” Cole trailed off, looking away from me. “Which reminds me...you have to talk about it after breakfast.” “...Fine.” “FOOD! YYEAHHH!” We heard none other than Sebastian scream from the top of the stairs. Kevin slowly followed him down, past me and Cole. “Let’s go eat, you klutz.” Cole said, helping me up. ---- “I know he cheats on me...I caught him...he doesn’t know that I know.” Cole said sadly, a tear running down his cheek. Sebastian went over to him and hugged him. We were sitting on my bedroom floor in a circle. Kevin was on my left, Cole was on my right and Sebastian was sitting across from me. I felt terrible for Cole...no one deserved to be cheated on, no matter how mean the person. Not even him. “Sharron...what does ‘cheat’ mean?” I heard Kevin ask me. “Well...Kevin, it is when two people are in a relationship and one of those people go and have a relationship with another person, do you understand?” I told him. My explanation didn’t make sense to me. “Yes, is it bad?” This boy sure didn’t know a lot of stuff... “Yes, it is really bad.” I replied. “Are you cheating on me?” He asked. I smiled. If he asked me if I was cheating on him...what does that mean? “No, Kevin, I’m not, and never ever ever would cheat on you.” I said, ruffling his hair. He smiled. “Good.” He said, trying to pat down his hair. “Are you cheating on me?” I asked, doing my best pouty face. He giggled, I couldn’t help but smile. “Nope!” He said, still giggling. I ruffled his hair again. He’s so adorable...I’m so happy I’m going to be the one to teach him about the world.
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January 22, 2008--[Original Slash]Stop The Tape, The Sunset Still Looks Fake To Me[03]--Hahaha...you know what I realzed the other day? All my characters look the same. But so does every other emo boy out there. SO! I guess its okay, right? And yeah..my fanny is going too fast...HAHAH! LMAO! YOU GET IT?! XD! woooooooooo. I am SO lame. SO...I have exams next week...Monday I have english, Tuesday I have Science, Wensday I have NOTHING! WOOT! and Thursday I have Math, Fun. I had a family studies exam today. I so failed it...LOL! OH! and. Will You Be My Valentine? XD. I put this in bold so it attracts to your EYES! mwahaha, lmao. Anyways...FUck, now I cant get it to leave. LMAO! anyways...BYEBYE! -LOVE SARAH! x3 [03] “What movie should we watch?” Cole said, kneeling beside the cabinet full of DVD’s. “Let’s watch something scary!” Sebastian yelled. “YEAH! How about...The Grudge?” Cole asked. “No! I want to watch The Ring!” Sebastian argued. “I don’t know if we should watch something scary...” I said, looking over to Kevin who was leaning against my arm, following the conversation with his eyes. He looked back up at me. “I’ll be fine.” He said. I didn’t believe him but it seemed like Cole and Sebastian did. Before I could protest, they had already put the movie in. Sebastian jumped back on the couch and Cole sat on an arm chair. The movie hadn’t even begun and I could already Kevin pushing himself into me. “Are you sure you are going to be okay?” I whispered to him. I felt his head turn on my side and I looked at him. He was staring back. “Yes. I need to be a big boy.” He whispered, starting to move away from me. I pulled him back to my side. “No, you don’t! I’m here for you, you can be scared.” “But dad says...” “Dad? My dad?” “No...mine.” “Oh, what does he say?” “That I can’t be scared...” “Awe, Kevin, your dad isn’t here to hurt you anymore. He never will hurt you again. Do you understand? You can be as scared as you like! I will be here, I will protect you.” “What if he comes back?” “He won’t! I promise!” “Would you two keep it down?! We are trying to watch a movie, here!” Cole screamed at as. Kevin flinched. I pulled him closer to me. “I promise.” I whispered in his ear. “CAN WE HAVE A SLEEP OVER?!” Sebastian screamed. “Shh! Kevin is sleeping!” I whispered harshly at him. Kevin had fallen asleep about an hour ago on my shoulder. “You guys look adorable, can I take a picture?” Cole asked, before I could protest, he already had his camera out. “I can’t believe you brought your camera.” I sighed. “Of course I brought it! It’s like my second foot!” he said, pressing a button. A quick flash blinded me. “Um...Cole, you already have two feet.” Sebastian said. “Shit, how bright can that flash be? I see spots!” I said, moving my arm around in the air, pretending I couldn’t see. “Oh...then...my third foot!” Cold said. “Sharron, stop it, you look like an idiot.” Sebastian told me, hitting my head. “Ow...” I said, rubbing the back of my head and pouting. “What’s wrong, Sharron?” I heard someone say beside me. The weight on my shoulder was realized. I looked over to see Kevin ruffling his hair. He looked adorable, his hair was sticking up everywhere. “Kevin!” Cole said. Kevin looked. There went another flash. |



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