Heartbreak Is Half The Fun, You Bring The Bullets I’ll Bring The Gun

Hahaha...you know what I realzed the other day? All my characters look the same. But so does every other emo boy out there. SO! I guess its okay, right? And yeah..my fanny is going too fast...HAHAH! LMAO! YOU GET IT?! XD! woooooooooo. I am SO lame. SO...I have exams next week...Monday I have english, Tuesday I have Science, Wensday I have NOTHING! WOOT! and Thursday I have Math, Fun. I had a family studies exam today. I so failed it...LOL! OH! and. Will You Be My Valentine? XD. I put this in bold so it attracts to your EYES! mwahaha, lmao. Anyways...FUck, now I cant get it to leave. LMAO! anyways...BYEBYE!

-LOVE SARAH! x3

[03]

“What movie should we watch?” Cole said, kneeling beside the cabinet full of DVD’s.

“Let’s watch something scary!” Sebastian yelled.

“YEAH! How about...The Grudge?” Cole asked.

“No! I want to watch The Ring!” Sebastian argued.

“I don’t know if we should watch something scary...” I said, looking over to Kevin who was leaning against my arm, following the conversation with his eyes. He looked back up at me.

“I’ll be fine.” He said. I didn’t believe him but it seemed like Cole and Sebastian did. Before I could protest, they had already put the movie in. Sebastian jumped back on the couch and Cole sat on an arm chair. The movie hadn’t even begun and I could already Kevin pushing himself into me.  

“Are you sure you are going to be okay?” I whispered to him. I felt his head turn on my side and I looked at him. He was staring back.

“Yes. I need to be a big boy.” He whispered, starting to move away from me. I pulled him back to my side.

“No, you don’t! I’m here for you, you can be scared.”

“But dad says...”

“Dad? My dad?”

“No...mine.”

“Oh, what does he say?”

“That I can’t be scared...”

“Awe, Kevin, your dad isn’t here to hurt you anymore. He never will hurt you again. Do you understand? You can be as scared as you like! I will be here, I will protect you.”

“What if he comes back?”

“He won’t! I promise!”

“Would you two keep it down?! We are trying to watch a movie, here!” Cole screamed at as. Kevin flinched. I pulled him closer to me.

“I promise.” I whispered in his ear.

“CAN WE HAVE A SLEEP OVER?!” Sebastian screamed.

“Shh! Kevin is sleeping!” I whispered harshly at him. Kevin had fallen asleep about an hour ago on my shoulder.

“You guys look adorable, can I take a picture?” Cole asked, before I could protest, he already had his camera out.

“I can’t believe you brought your camera.” I sighed.

“Of course I brought it! It’s like my second foot!” he said, pressing a button. A quick flash blinded me.

“Um...Cole, you already have two feet.” Sebastian said.

“Shit, how bright can that flash be? I see spots!” I said, moving my arm around in the air, pretending I couldn’t see.

“Oh...then...my third foot!” Cold said.

“Sharron, stop it, you look like an idiot.” Sebastian told me, hitting my head.

“Ow...” I said, rubbing the back of my head and pouting.

“What’s wrong, Sharron?” I heard someone say beside me. The weight on my shoulder was realized. I looked over to see Kevin ruffling his hair. He looked adorable, his hair was sticking up everywhere.

“Kevin!” Cole said. Kevin looked. There went another flash.

“AH! MY EYES!” Kevin screamed.

“Look what you did!” I scowled Cole, “Are you okay Kevin?”

“I see spots...” Kevin said.

“He looked so cute! I got you in it too, Sharron!” Cole told us happily.

“It will go away!” I told Kevin.

“Okay...” Kevin said, looking down at the floor.

“Sharron, move closer to Kevin.” Sebastian said.

“Why?” I asked sceptically.

“Because I want to take a picture of you two.” Cole said.

“Is that okay, Kevin?” I asked. Kevin looked up at me.

“Sure.” He said.

“Okay.” I replied. I moved myself closer to Kevin, putting my arm around his shoulders. He put his head on my shoulder and I put my head on top of his.

“You guys are adorable.” Sebastian said, looking over at Cole.

“Totally agreed. SMILE!” Cole said. Me and Kevin smiled and Cole took another picture.

“Damn that flash is bright...” I said, moving my head and arm to rub my eyes. Kevin moved his head as well.  

“OKAY! Now it’s Sebastian’s turn with Kevin.” Cole said, smiling. I felt Cole flinch beside me. I narrowed my eyes, “Not like that! Sheesh, Sharron! Don’t have a cow!”

“I want Sharron...” I heard Kevin whisper beside me.

“Awe, it’s okay. You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to.” I replied to him, he was staring at the ground, playing with his hands.

“I was just going to take a picture with you and Sebastian...” Cole said lightly.

“Okay...” Kevin whispered, still looking at the ground.

“You don’t have to if you don’t want to.” I said, trying not to force Kevin into anything. He had been through a lot in his years. He was always forced into things. Being locked in a basement...being abused by his dad for no reason...I didn’t want to be one of the people who had hurt him in his life. I wanted him to love me, to feel comfortable around me.

“I want to.” He said, now looking at me, his green eyes were worried.

“Okay...but I will be standing right over there, if you don’t want to take pictures anymore.” I said, while pointing to beside Cole.

“Okay.” He said. I stood up, exchanging places with Sebastian.

“Smile!” Cole said and again, came that agonising flash.

“Wholy, that flash is bright!” Sebastian said, now rubbing his eyes.

“Oh shut up! Just pose.” Cole said. Sebastian made a funny face and Kevin just laughed at it. They took a couple more pictures and then it was the whole group’s turn!

“My couch isn’t big enough for all of us...so we might have to sit on each other.” I said, scratching my head.

“Okay, Kevin can sit on you.” Sebastian offered for us.

“Thanks.” I replied, Kevin got up from the couch and I took his place. He stood there for a minute before I patted my lap.

“Are you going to come and sit, or do I have to hold you down?” I asked while smiling up at him. He smiled back at me.

“I’ll sit.” He replied. And with that, he was on my lap. I wrapped my arms around his waist and put my head on his shoulder. He turned his head a little so he could see my face. He smiled, I smiled back.

“That’s adorable.” I heard Sebastian say. Another flash went off.

“All four of us! Kevin, Sharron, look at the camera!” Cole said, Kevin turned his head to the camera and so did I. Cole was holding it out in his hand, facing the front of it towards the four of us.

“To happy times, and fresh beginnings.” I whispered, mostly to Kevin.

“Say CHEESE!” Cole yelled. The blinding light came again...This, is going to be the best time of my life. I can feel it.

Okay guys! Here you go! Im sorry I haven't posted in like...idk...3 days? I've been busy and just plain lazy. xD. I posted now, only because someone told me to! I wonder who that is? *rolls eyes* So Yeah, 2 characters are introduced in this chapter. I think my fanfiction is going too fast....Haha. but yeah...here it is! -Love Sarah. <3

Sebastian

Cole

[02] 

“Sorry.” I said, realising my arms from his waist. I could feel the blood rushing to my cheeks.

“It’s okay.” He said with no expression at all on his face.

“The shower is uh...this way.” I said, pointing down the hallway.

“Okay.” He replied. I lead the way, walking down the white hallway. I stopped at a white door with a brass handle.

“In here.” I said, now pointing to the closed door.

“Thanks.”

“No problem.”

He walked into the bathroom, closing the door behind him. I sighed at the closed door and started to make my way to m-our room. I slowly opened the lime green door with a push of my foot. Skipping my way to my bed, I plopped down.

I am such an idiot.

I shouldn’t have held him like that...just grabbed his arm, right? It might have come out of the socket though...and that wouldn’t make a good start. What if I didn’t catch him at all? No...he would of fallen down the stairs and that would of been even worse. I don’t like this at all. I don’t like having a ‘brother.’ I have to watch over him all the time. He’s younger than me...by a year. That makes me even more obligated to watch over him.

What is going to happen when we start school next week? Is everyone going to pick on him? I hope they don’t...I wouldn’t be able to stand it. I would probably punch the first person who gave him a hard time. This is going to be horrible...My friends....are they going to give him a hard time? I will punch them if they do. They will probably try to rape him...especially Cole and Sebastian. This is going to be difficult...protecting him from everyone. Cole and Sebastian won’t actually try to rape him...they will just be...very open to him, I guess you could say.

Cole...He’s an amazing boy. I imagine his features right now. I remember the night when we tried to tell him his boyfriend was cheating on him. His dark brown eyes were in denial. He didn’t want to believe it. His dark brown hair fell over his eyes. His face was hard and tear stained. That was a terrible night...Cole and Phil are still going out...Cole just won’t believe it. He doesn’t want to be hurt. We all know he is, but he acts extremely happy all the time to hide his pain.

“Hi.” I heard someone say, breaking me from my thoughts. I looked over to see Kevin with dripping wet hair. He was wearing purple pj pants and a plain white t-shirt.

“Why didn’t you rub your head in a towel?” I asked, noticing his hair drip all over the floor.

“Do you have a hairdryer?” He asked.

“Yeah, it’s in the cabinet under the sink in the bathroom.” I said.

“Okay.” He replied before leaving the room again. I heard the blow-dryer go on.

“So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that your under Lipstick lullabies This is sorry for the last time And baby I understand that your making new friends This is how you get by The moral this time is Girls make boys cry.” My phone went off. Ahh...I love Mayday Parade! Sometimes I wouldn’t answer my phone just so the whole song would play. This time though, I answered.

“Hello?” I said into my phone.

“HEY biotch, howz it hanging?” they replied

“Funny. I’m good, lying in my bed! What about you?”

“I’m good. Just hanging out with Sebastian! He wants to know if you have gotten your little play mate yet?”

“Cole...He’s not a play mate, he’s my foster brother.”

“Same thing...is he cute?”

“Cole...”

“Fine, fine. Sebastian is wondering too! We are coming over, okay? OKAY!”

Damn it. He hung up before I could protest.

I was randomly swearing under my breathe.

“Are you okay?” I heard someone ask. I looked up to see Kevin with perfect hair.

“Yeah, my friends are just coming over” I said, looking over his hair.

“Okay. Is that bad?” he asked.

“No. They are just going to admire you.” I said, imagining Cole and Sebastian jump on Kevin. I shook my head to get the thought out and concentrated on Kevin.

“Admire? Is that good?” he asked. My mother told me he might not know a lot of words.

“Admire is good.  To admire someone, that means they like you.” I said, swinging my legs over the bed to sit up.

“Do you admire me?” he asked. I laughed to myself.

“Yeah, I admire you.” I replied. He smiled.

“I admire you too.” He said.

“Thank you. Now, you should probably get dressed for my friends, okay?” I said, getting up and walking towards his suitcase on the floor. I picked it up and threw it on his bed.

“Okay.” He said, starting to open his suitcase.

“I will leave you to get dressed and when you are done, you can meet me downstairs, okay?”  I said, starting to walk towards the door.

“Okay.” He said again. I walked down the stairs and sat on the couch, waiting for my friends to come over. I think only Cole and Sebastian were going to come. I hope my parents won’t get mad. They shouldn’t though. My mother will just want me to make sure they don’t rape him or something.

Ding-dong.

Right on cue. I got up from the couch and walked over to the door. I opened it and in came Cole and Sebastian, pushing me to the side looking around. After they had finished they turned to me, a little angry.

“Where is he?” Sebastian asked, his dark brown eyes staring me down. His hair was...attempted to be nicely put together. I think he did it in the car.

“It’s nice to see you too, Sebastian.” I said, closing the door and rolling my eyes.

“Awe, we’re sorry...” Cole said, walking to me and giving me a hug, “Now where is he?!”

“Where is who?” I heard someone ask. We all looked up to the stairs. There was Kevin.

Cole leaned over towards me and whispered, “That’s him?”

“Yeah. That’s him.” I whispered back.

“Where is who?” Kevin asked again, having seen no one answer him.

“You! My friends wanted to meet you.” I said, walking towards where Kevin was standing.

“Okay.” He said, meeting me half way.

“Kevin, this is Sebastian.” I said pointing to Sebastian, “Sebastian, Kevin.”

“Hey.” Sebastian said. Kevin just waved back.

“Kevin, this is Cole.” I said, now pointing to Cole, “Cole, Kevin.”

“Hey!” Cole said enthusiastically. Again, Kevin just waved.

“You sure are shy!” Cole said.

“Yeah.” Kevin replied.

“Hey, Kevin, do you want to come sit with me?” Sebastian asked. He was sitting on the couch with the TV on looking at Kevin hopefully.

“I want to sit with Sharron...” he said looking at the ground. Cole and Sebastian awed.

“Okay, we will sit together then.” I said, grabbing Kevin’s hand and leading him to the couch. I pulled him down next to me. He moved closer to me.

This is going to be an interesting night.  

Okay guys, I don't know if I will be able to post everyday, since I started school. POOPIE! buut...I am posting today, because I feel generous. haha. you guys are LUCKY! even though only like, 2 people are reading it. xD BUT! I will say everything I need to right now! yes, this is a slash! and no, there will NOT be any sex scenes...I will either start laughing or be horrified out of grossness! SO! I will not write sex scenes. And I am sure most of you dont want them? I hope. If you do...go read another slash. Haha, SO! Whatelse....hmm...I had a whole paragraph to write in my head, and now I forgot it. I am SO smart, Lol...hmm...OH! There will be more characters with pictures, but as the characters are introduced, I will have the pictrues of them, okay? I want a banner...But I have NO idea how to work photoshop. So....anyone wanna make me one?! Haha, im kidding. But...Yeah I cant think of anything else to write here...If I do...I will post it in the next story, okay?! -Love Sarah.<3

[01]  

“Kevin, you will be sharing a room with Sharron, okay?” My father said, caring a bag of Kevin’s stuff up the stairs. Kevin was behind him, caring another one of his bags, then me, then my mom.

“Okay.” Kevin replied, following my father. He stopped at my bedroom door, it was painted lime green. I thought I heard him chuckle.

“Sorry about the color choices, Sharron is very...creative, let’s say.”  My father cleared up. I guess he heard him laugh, too.

“Hey! Lime green is an awesome color!” I protested.

“Yeah, but it doesn’t exactly go with purple, Sharron.” My father said, opening the door to reveal dark purple walls with posters of bands hung up everywhere. Papers and clothes were scattered everywhere on the floor, you could barely notice there even was a floor. There was one bed pushed against the farthest wall, under the window. Another bed was pushed against the wall closest to the door. There was a closet, overflowing with clothes and other shit on the right hand side of the room.

“Didn’t I tell you to clean your room last week, Sharron!?” My mother scolded, walking into the room behind the rest of us.

“...I did...” I whispered under my breath.

“Sharron, you are going to have to keep your room clean if you have a guest here! Don’t forget to make your bed!” My mother said, picking up random articles of clothing and pointing at the bed under the window, my bed. The other bed, which currently occupied the weight of my father and Kevin, was made up completely, no one had slept in that bed since him. My old...boyfriend, not that he was much of one. It’s been awhile since him. It’s been awhile since any long-term relationship. I’ve always been too scared to get into any kind of relationship.

“Kevin, I am sorry for this horrible room, Sharron will clean it up right away!” my mother told him.

I sighed, I just cleaned it two days ago...It’s not my fault I have a lot of clothes and they don’t all fit in my closet!

Kevin looked at me, hearing my pain of cleaning up my room.

“I’ll help...” Kevin whispered. My mother froze in her spot.

“You want to help clean up...this?!” She asked, shocked.

“Sure...?” he said, obviously unsure of his answer.

“Okay...if you really want to.” My mother said, walking to my father and pulling him out of the room, closing the door after them. I thought they didn’t want me to develop a crush on this kid, leaving me alone in a room is sure to have the opposite effect!

“Thanks for helping me.” I said shyly.

“No problem.” He said, picking up my pink zip-up hoodie. He held it in his hands for a minute, unsure of what to do with it.

“I have everything labelled...mother is a neat freak.” I said, taking it from his hands and going towards the closet. I attempted to climb over the mountain of clothes to get to the sweater drawer...but I failed miserably. The whole pile collapsed under me and I was stuck in a pile of clothes. I scrambled to get up but the clothes were too heavy on my chest. It felt like something out of a horror movie.

I heard Kevin laughing. That’s nice, laugh instead of help me out.

“Heeellppp!” I cried, still trying to wiggle out of all the clothes. I heard the bed squeak. I couldn’t exactly see, because while I was trying to get out, I managed to flip myself over. I felt a weight being lifted off my back and hands wrapping around my waist, pulling me up.

“Thanks!” I said, once on my feet. Kevin just nodded and started picking up random clothes. I helped him...seeing as it was my room. In an hour, we had managed to clean the whole room [by shoving most of my clothes in the closet...shhh!]

“It looks like we’re done!” I said, collapsing on my bed. I turned to the side and supported my head with my hand to look at Kevin, where he was seated on his new bed.

“Yeah.” He replied simply, looking around the room.

“Do you like the color?” I asked, remembering my father’s criticism from earlier.  

“Yeah.” He replied, again. This time, he was looking at me. Our eyes connected but he shied away quickly.

“Are you nervous being here?” I asked, trying to maybe start a conversation, but with the way this guy answered, I don’t think I will be getting very far.

“Yeah.” He replied again. Can he say anything other than ‘yeah’?

“Sharron! Kevin! Come down for dinner!” I heard my mother yell.

“Well...we better go!” I said, standing  up.

“Yeah.” Kevin said. SERIOUSLY! If this kid says ‘yeah’ one more time, he’s dead!

We both walked out of my room and headed down the stairs to the dining room. My father was already sitting at one end of the table, the other end, my mother always occupied. There was one chair on the left side and one on the right. I never usually had anyone to sit across from when we ate dinner.

“Kevin, you can sit here.” My father said, pointing to the chair on the right. Kevin nodded and took a seat, I followed but only sat in the chair on the left side. My mother came in with a giant pot. I recognized the smell, homemade Mac ‘n Cheese. My favourite! She placed the pot in the center of the table, picking up a giant spoon!

“Kevin, would you please hand me your plate?” My mother asked, Kevin handed it to her, “Say when, dear.”

I thought I saw Kevin flinch at the word ‘dear’ but I wasn’t sure...

“When.” Kevin said, after the first spoonful.

“Thanks all you want?” my mother asked, noticing his small portion.

“Yes.” He said, holding out a hand for his plate.

“Okay...” My mother said sceptically.

“Thanks” Kevin said, sticking a fork in his meal.

“James.” My mother said, asking for my dad’s bowl. She repeated her daily procedure, asking for your plate, telling you to say ‘when’ then handing it back to you, only to repeat it with the next person. We all ate our dinner in peace, no talking. I was surprised, because Kevin was the last one finished, he barley took any food.

“If you aren’t hungry, dear, you don’t have to finish it.” My mother told him. He did flinch at the word ‘dear.’ Strange.

“Okay.” He said, pushing his plate farther away from him and placing his fork on the table.

“Sharron, why don’t you show Kevin where the shower is, I’m sure he would like to bath.” My father said.

“Okay.” I said, standing up. Kevin followed me. I ran up the stairs, leaving Kevin at the bottom. I turned around when I was at the top, only to be hit in the chest by something hard. Kevin. He tipped backwards, on verge of falling down the stairs. I grabbed his arm and yanked it towards me, I wrapped my arms around him to make sure he wouldn’t fall again, taking a step backwards. He looked up at me.

Like I said, I was going to do anything for this boy.

[Original Slash]

Okay, guys! I promised a fanfict, and looks like I delivered! Its late, and I need to go to sleep, I have school on Monday! I will say everything that I need to say tomorrow...but I will give you the pictures of what the boys look like right now. Injoy! =] -Love Sarah. <3

^-Sharron-^

^-Kevin-^

[Prologue]   

The summer rain poured down from the black sky, encasing the car with water. My dad slowed down when he came up to a big white building. It looked deserted, like a prison. Tall wire fences enclosed the buildings sides.
“Jean, Sharron, wait here! I’m going to get our new family member for the time being.” My father said. His light brown hair fell over his pale blue eyes. He stepped out of the car into the never ending shower. I watched my father hold his hand over his head, running to go get my new brother.

I have two words for you all, foster care. The most wretched thing I have ever come across.

“I’m sure you will just love your new brother, Sharron!” My mother exclaimed, turning around in her seat to talk to me.

“I’m sure, mom.” I replied, smiling at her.

“Please do not develop a crush on this poor boy, he has been through a lot.” She said, attacking my sexuality.

“Mom, I know! I don’t know about my friends though.” I said, mumbling the last part to myself. Somehow, my mother always managed to hear everything.

“Oh! That reminds me! Please inform your friends, make sure to let them know he doesn’t know right from wrong.”

“I know mom, I already told them. They seemed rather excited to be able to teach someone about the world.”

“Okay, dear. Just make sure not to teach him the wrong things.”

“I know, mom. You don’t have to worry!”

“Oh! Look! Here they come!”

I looked outside the window again, you couldn’t see very much. There was a figure, presumably my dad, guiding the smaller figure towards the car. They became closer and closer to the car. My dad ran around the car with the boy. He opened the door for the boy, and the boy got in. My dad followed his actions into the driver’s seat.

The boy had black hair that went to below his ears. His hair was layered, in the same nature mine was. His was more fluffy, though. His eyes were a brilliant color. His eyes were a light green-grey, lined with a darker green. His skin was a tanned color.

“Sharron, this is Kevin.” My father said, “Kevin, this is my son Sharron.”

I smiled at Kevin, the edges of his lips curved up alittle.

“Hello, it’s very nice to meet you.” I said, politely, sticking out my hand.

“Hi, it’s nice to meet you too.” He replied, taking my hand and shaking it a bit before letting go.

“Kevin, this is my wife, Jean.” My father said, now introducing Kevin and my mother.

“Hello, Kevin. I am glad to finally meet you.” My mother said, smiling.

“It’s nice to meet you too, Jean.” Kevin said, smiling back.

“Okay, well. Let’s get on the road then! We have a long way back.” My father said, starting up the car and pulling away from the ‘prison’, also known as Kevin’s previous home.

Kevin, he was gorgeous, I’ll admit it. I knew we could never be anything though, his mind wasn’t nearly at the same level as mine was. I felt bad for Kevin, he had been through so much in his 16 years of life. I always had complained about my life, but it was nothing compared to what Kevin has gone through. I felt almost lucky, because I was going to be able to bring life to this boy, hopefully. I was going to teach him everything he missed out on. I was going to give him friends, who would love him until the end of time! I was going to give him a good house to live him, with a place to sleep and food to eat. I was going to give him parents, good parents. I would give him everything he could dream of.

Kevin leaned his head on the window, staring out into the pouring rain. I mimicked his actions on my own window, except staring at Kevin instead of the rain.

I was going to take good care of this boy.

I was going to love this boy.

I was going to be the first person he would start talking in full sentences too.

I felt obligated to do this.

I was going to do anything for Kevin.

I dont really know what to say...other than...

HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yep...happy new year, guys!

My new years resolutions?

-get a boyfriend[xD Lizybeth]
-dont be so bitchy
-get AMAZING grades in all subjects
-pass all my exams
-annnnnnnnnnd last but not least...dont fall in love with any JERKS!

hahahaha.

Yeah well I have no idea what else to say...

OH!

I might be starting up fanfiction again!

I figured out, that I write the best while im MAD! haha

Anyways...I think thats it?

Yes.

So.

BYE!

-Love Sarah. <3